Don't Be So Concerned

"... even the thought of seeking God is a step toward our transformation.  Still, we often do not notice the first signs of our spiritual renewal, for as we grow increasingly more aware of God, we simultaneously grow increasingly less aware of ourselves.  Though we may not see that we are changing, others certainly will."  - Francis Frangipane

Wow.  Reading that this afternoon gave me hope from a perspective I have not been privy to in the past.  I think what Frangipane is trying to say here is that as we draw nearer to God, we are getting further from being concerned about ourselves and our own interests.  As we begin to live life closer to the One who created us, we will change whether we notice it or not.  As we get closer, we become more focused on the Lord and less focused on how it effects us.  This is probably why you will notice that the people who inspire and influence you most in your walk with the Lord often do not intend to and are often surprised if you tell them.  So, if you are trying desperately to seek the Lord but don't feel satisfied... GOOD.  If you felt satisfied you would no longer be hungry.  Keep that desperation.  Trust that when you are seeking Him, you don't need to be concerned with changing "enough" because then the focus is on you instead of Him.  If you feel like you aren't making any ground... it's ok.  You might just be focusing on the Lord enough to not allow yourself to see what's really happening in your own world yet.